Owl's Nest

A time to remember.

2009-10-21T23:15:02Z

Today I did something I thought I would never do. Or at lease something I never thought I would have the courage to do. For those that know me they know I have never worn my wedding ring on the left hand I have always wore it on the right hand. This is where a widow wears her ring. I have been thinking about this off and on for the last week or so fighting with myself over it. Cause we all know I never do anything the easy way. But any way I digress. Today I took of my wedding band and put it in the box next to his. I think it is finally time to do this and move forward. to live in the now. I am not forgetting him I am not abandoning him, But It is time for me to make my life the way I want it not live it for someone else who is not living it any more. So here I go moving forward one step at a time, hoping not to fall to hard this time.

Thought for the day

2008-12-11T16:14:03Z

THE FINAL INSPECTION

The soldier stood and faced God,

Which must always come to pass.

He hoped his shoes were shining,

Just as brightly as his brass.

"Step forward now, you soldier,

How shall I deal with you ?

Have you always turned the other cheek ?

To My Church have you been true?"

The soldier squared his shoulders and said,

"No, Lord, I guess I ain't.

Because those of us who carry guns,

Can't always be a saint.

I've had to work most Sundays,

And at times my talk was tough.

And sometimes I've been violent,

Because the world is awfully rough.

But, I never took a penny,

That wasn't mine to keep...

Though I worked a lot of overtime,

When the bills got just too steep.

And I never passed a cry for help,

Though at times I shook with fear.

And sometimes, God, forgive me,

I've wept unmanly tears.

I know I don't deserve a place,

Among the people here.

They never wanted me around,

Except to calm their fears.

If you've a place for me here, Lord,

It needn't be so grand.

I never expected or had too much,

But if you don't, I'll understand.

There was a silence all around the throne,

Where the saints had often trod.

As the soldier waited quietly,

For the judgment of his God.

"Step forward now, you soldier,

You've borne your burdens well.

Walk peacefully on Heaven's streets,

You've done your time in Hell.
"

~Author Unknown~

qotd

2008-10-20T19:50:50Z

"I do not feel obliged to believe that the same God who has
endowed us with sense, reason and intellect has intended us
to forgo their use." --Galileo Galilei

owlofchaos @ 2008-10-17T01:00:00

2008-10-17T06:00:21Z

You are The High Priestess

Science, Wisdom, Knowledge, Education.

The High Priestess is the card of knowledge, instinctual, supernatural, secret knowledge. She holds scrolls of arcane information that she might, or might not reveal to you. The moon crown on her head as well as the crescent by her foot indicates her willingness to illuminate what you otherwise might not see, reveal the secrets you need to know. The High Priestess is also associated with the moon however and can also indicate change or fluxuation, particularily when it comes to your moods.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

Qotd

2008-10-14T07:56:55Z

Love and hate both devastate you, but love takes you for dinner first

qotd

2008-09-02T23:35:10Z

Ccalories consumed while devouring ice cream with your girls when your having a bad day.
DO NOT COUNT"

owlofchaos @ 2008-08-07T12:55:00

2008-08-07T17:56:09Z

Your result for The Brutally Honest Personality Test...

Borefest - ISTJ

33% Extraversion, 47% Intuition, 80% Thinking, 87% Judging

One word. Boring. Sums you up to a tee. You're responsible, trustworthy, serious and down to earth. Boring. Boring. Boring.

You play by the rules. You follow tradition. You encourage structure.

You insist that EVERYBODY do EVERYTHING by the book. Seriously, is there even an ounce of imagination in that little brain of yours? I mean, what's the point of imagination, right? It has no practical value...

As far as you're concerned, abstract theories can go screw themselves. You just want the facts, all the facts and nothing but the facts.

Oh. And you're a perfectionist. About everything. You know that the previous sentence was gramattically incorrect and that "gramattically" was spelt wrong. Your financial records are correct to 25 decimal places and your bedroom is in pristine condition. In fact, you even don't sleep on your bed anymore for fear that you might crease the sheets.

Thankfully, you don't have anyone else to share the bed with, because you're uncomfortable expressing affection and emotion to others. Too bad.

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If you want to learn more about your personality type in a slightly less negative way, check out this.

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The other personality types are as follows...

Loner - Introverted Sensing Feeling Perceiving

Pushover - Introverted Sensing Feeling Judging

Criminal - Introverted Sensing Thinking Perceiving

Almost Perfect - Introverted iNtuitive Feeling Perceiving

Freak - Introverted iNtuitive Feeling Judging

Loser - Introverted iNtuitive Thinking Perceiving

Crackpot - Introverted iNtuitive Thinking Judging

Clown - Extraverted Sensing Feeling Perceiving

Sap - Extraverted Sensing Feeling Judging

Commander - Extraverted Sensing Thinking Perceiving

Do Gooder - Extraverted Sensing Thinking Judging

Scumbag - Extraverted iNtuitive Feeling Perceiving

Busybody - Extraverted iNtuitive Feeling Judging

Prick - Extraverted iNtuitive Thinking Perceiving

Dictator - Extraverted iNtuitive Thinking Judging

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qotd

2007-10-15T21:16:08Z

Life is made up of moments that last a life time not a lifetime that lasts a moment.

Owl ~profoundly!~

more qotd

2007-10-08T06:00:47Z

"fuck you , you name the time and the place and i will name the lenght and positions"

~owl~ Snickeringly

qotd

2007-10-08T05:54:14Z

You say "fuck you" i say " How hard"

owl ~cacklingly~

Wells fargo

2007-09-07T18:12:41Z

Okay for those who have read very_twisted_mind you know i have had a bit of trouble with wells fargo. I am going to go into a bit more detail. I called to check first that i would be able to cash this check. Was told with proper documentation i would be able to cash it no problem. So death cert in hand and every id i own i tramped down to the wells fargo the first bank kept me waiting a good 10-15 min while they checked with legal they told me they couldn;t cash it but they were nice about it. SEnt me to another branch because i had the okay from them. So i go to the other branch and they make me wait 20 min while the guy is chatting with a pretty lady in the office. I was told that it was to much of a legal hassle to cash that check because i was not a client with them . But if i would like to open an account Then they could help me and i would have funds available in 48 hours. Wells fargos sucks in customer service.

The Return pt 2

2007-01-14T00:21:52Z

He rose from the shadows and the blood red glowing eyes looked across the spell barrier and his grin widend as he realized who it was that had summoned himm his body posture relaxed some. " I see you have been sucessfull this time my love. It is good to be back among the living and freed from that hellish prison I was placed in." He moved forward with the grace of a hunting cat to the very edge of the spell wards and as she rose the candle flames and walked forward to meet him, she spoke the words and the barrier fell and he was free he gave a yell of triumph as he lept forward towards her his hands in balled fists.
She arched a brow as he lept forward towards her, her scaled and clawed hand lashed out and pinned him to the wall with an audible crunch. " I think you have forgotten your place Husband........" Her voice trailed off softly. " And with whom you are dealing with." She leaned in face close to his her silver eyes glowing brightly with suppressed anger. " Perhaps I should remind you. AS it is I can live with out you ..." She paused and looked at him her face gone devoid of all the joy and excitement that was there but a moment before now it was all dark fury and anticipated pain. " Can you say the same? Husband mine."
His eyes went wide as she had him pinned to the wall faster than he could draw a breath and had him by the throat and she finally let him speak. " Forgive me beloved , I forgot my self and where I was and that I was indeed indebted to your wonderous self. I feared only that you would send me back and this was a trick of some kind that it was not real, I thought only to secure my freedom and return to my beloved." She meerly looked at him and her face clearly said she was not buying the fertilizer he was selling and she increased her grip on his throat enough to stop the breathing for a bit she would let him breath. She carefully traced a rune over his foread and it glowed bright with silver fire and was absorbed into his skin. The process aparently was not pleasant as he screamed and writhed against her iron grip. The pain faded quickly but left him limp and weak against the wall and she let go letting him drop to the floor. " If you try and slay me again or cause me any harm you will feel that pain only worse it will be intensified by the act you attempt to commit." She looked down at his prone form and smiled a tight lipped feral smile. " I belive I have won this round beloved. I will send Simon in to tend to your wounds and dress you properly. " With that said she turned and stalked out of the room clearly not pleased with this outcome of his arrival perhaps something went wrong with the summoning , she would have to go over all the details again

The return

2006-12-19T03:05:34Z

It was time , or so she thought to herself as she began to pace the floor of her tower rooms. She looked out over the horizon as the storm struck in the distance it was going to be a night to remember. Owl turned from her pacing and descended the stairs and bellowed down as she went. " Simon, it is time prepare the spell components and my working robes." Simon called back up the stairs as he heard her coming down. " It shall be as you wish My lady." He turned and made his way into the laboratory and began pulling the salts and the herbs and the crystals and runes out and started tracing the patterns on the floor that had been painstakingly etched over the last few months in preparations for this night. " First the red ,then the white , blue ,green and finally black." He spoke to himself mostly to make sure he had the order right and he didn't make a mistake that could be fatal to his mistress and cost them many months in preparation. It was not every night that was a lunar eclipse and a dragon storm. He could already hear the growls and roars of the rising dragons as the storm began to race in their direction it very nearly matched the ferocity of the storm outside. He began to light the candles and start the incense as the mistress appeard in the doorway she never ceased to take his breath away when she appeared out of the shadows to which her kin were born. He walked to her and pulled down the heavy midnight blue and silver runed robes from their hook and draped them upon his mistress and belted and fastened them around her lithe form. Her ebon hand gently squeezed his shoulder as the only sign of appreciation she showed for his devotion and she went to the center and looked over the etching and corrected a few things but left the majority of them alone he had done well this time it appeared perfect and she went to the huge spell book in the center of the room. Lady Owl motioned for Simon to leave the room and secure the door from the outside she did not want anything to go wrong but if it did she wanted no one else to suffer her mistakes. With a gesture from her hand all the lights but the candles dimmed and finally went out as she began the archaic chanting it was a mix between drow and ancient dragon. Her voice begame sibilant hissing some phrases as her features changed from that of a tall ebony skinned elf to that of a scaled and clawed creature her silver eyes glowed with the rising power and became slitted very much like a reptiles. As the chanting continued the heat in the room rose significantly and the etched symbol flared to live with magical fire and slowly spread through all the colors the flame rising as high as her six foot frame , they flared one more time and went black and red as the magical fire reacted where it was supposed to and a wail began to rise up from the center of the circle as if the very gates of the underworld had opened up and spewed forth it's filth. Her casting reached its crescendo at the same time the wailing had reached its peak the storm broke over head and the whole manse shook with the tremors of power. The black flames lept higher to the ceiling of the laboratory and then the room went dark. It was as if someone had spilled the very essence of night into the room the heat dissipated and the chilly breath of fog rolled out from the center of the circle and everything was still and silent for a full ten count. She looked intently to the circle her silver eyes adjusting to heat sight she saw one vaguely humanoid form and it rose slowly to its feet and a pair of blood red eyes peered out from the dark with in the center. She spoke softly and almost lovingly? " Welcome back my love."

mischeif and mayhem

2006-05-05T04:18:49Z

Today i have a new vent to post something differnt. One of the characters in my head has requested i post her story here and see what becomes of it. Now any one may feel free to interact with her on story basis but all characters that i portray an speak of are mine or my family members and may not be used again with out my written permmisson so before you borrow please ask i will more than likely allow it to be done. That said on with the show.

Owl Story

As I think back on my life I wonder who will ever care or read "just another boring history on just another Drow" This is another tale all together. This tells of my life before i found the Clan and finally peace. No matter the good I have done in the name of Saving Clan Arkaine there is another side to that Guardian.

Before I came to those two wonderfull Darklings in the cabin by the lage. I ruled one of the largest cities in the Drow nation. I was First matron of the House Dragonstear. At least that is how our name translates in Upper Common. Many times i have wondered how it is I can still be alive afterall to my own people I am an abomination, a half breed, a strange cross between a dragon and a Drow. My mother whos name means Shadowdancer was given a vision by the Goddess. She was to go to the surface as a red dragon one of the strongest and biggest of the Dark Dragons. Now at the time Mother was in Religious ecstacy, so she did not question her Goddess not that she would have clear headed, those who ask questions ended up dead or worse. So Mother did as she was bade and used the spell sent by the Goddess. She soard high above the world of Light with impunity untill a huge male Dragon began to persue her and the instincts of the dragon siezed her and the mating flight was started. After that mother retreated to the saftey of the Under Dark caverns to bear her ordained child. Soon after my birth, well soon by my standards. The second house attacked ours , my mother was beheaded before my very eyes, that alone was enough to envoke my significant rage, but i felt the goddess's touch and she bid me wait for me vengance against these butchers. Now I do not look like the rest of my people in several ways, one is my size i stand six feet at the tallest point, my hair is not white like others , mine is silver of the moon and star light , my people call it Star touched as a curse. My eyes are like liquid pools of moltent silver and if i choose not to hide it they are slidtted in the fashion of the dragon heritage. I was a Battle Captaive, which meant i had less rights than a slave and was bound by a magical bond to obey and protect my mistress with my life. T was used and abused and debased in this manner for at least fifty to seventy five years before i managed to free my self. The night i freed my self i will never forget, it was the first time i ever took my true dragon form. I was chained in the center of the Courtyard , stripped naked on displacy and my mistress was using the famed snake headed whips on me i was suprised i had lasted the first half hour. the mistress was furious that she had not killed me yet as the poison of her snakes awas famed for thier burning agony they caused, and the crippling effect they had. The mistress gave up on that whip and she chose a very special one. This one was braided through with mithril and adamantine spines. So it was razor sharp. She was much more satisfied with those results. I finally screamed for her and began to beg for it to stop. I am ashamed at how easily i broke for her after only five hours of her continous attention. I begged and groveled for it to stop. It was at that moment the Goddess struck. the change began as fire raced through me causing eve more pain than i thought was even possible. I olny rember the beginig of itWhen i came back to my self i was laying in the smoldering ruins of the courtyard. The Drow that were still around were in a panic, a rare sight to see. They screamed of a red dragon loose in the caverns and i knew waht had happened. The carnage and total distruction around me i had caused. All the death and distruction made me light headed with pleasure, For nothing felt wuite like the wonton distruction of a well hated enemy. It was time for me to avenge my mother and my house. The goddess agreed with me apparently because i was taken to the ruleing council by one of the larges Darken Spiders i have ever had the privlidge to see. It picked me up with the greatest of care and walked me through the center of the great city. Parading me for all to see the Goddess sood on my side. I went before the ruleing council and told them i was the First Daughter of the House Dragonstear and now come to calim my rightfull place as Matron Motherand claimed rights against the Second House For failed Raid as they clearly no longer had the Favoer of the Goddess's blessing as i still drew breath. The decision was swift the First house mobilized thier army and put them under my command and i began the slaughter of House Do'la'nass. After i secured my victory and all the immediate nobels were dead . I began the consolidation of power. I adopted the rouge male house and gave them my backing and began searching out strong females i could use and rebuilt myhouse stronger and better than most thought possible. Unlike my sisters I know males are very capable figheters and mages and since my sister's insisted on underestimating them, I used this fact ruthlessly to my advantage. I moved on the First house the summer of my Two hundred and seventy fifth year.My victory was swift and brutal and left no doubt in the minds of my sistersa new era was upon them , The goddess denied the spells of my enemies when they counter attacked. Then the Drider came to my aide after that all resistance was crushed fiecrly. Now i rulled the city and started my hunting. I hunted down every drow that had a blood line relastion to the Do'la'nass. I spent centuries researching and huntinf that house to the last meamber. My children eventually had grown tired of my eccentricities over time and in true drow form , the tried to kill me. Apparently i taught them too well for they very nearly succeeded with their plan. they poisoned me with Lode stone in my food for weeks before i was too weak to use my magic. They then cast circles of binding and locked away the little magic i could summon. They had locked me in my rooms untill they could get the nerve up to kill me. I chose not to wait on thier bravery. I found a rune i had hidden away for just suck and occasion and activated it. I used it to flee my city and my children. There i said it the Great Owl fled a fight like a whipped dog. the rune dropped me in a clearing on the surface. I a woke some days later much to my suprise in a bed not dead or imprisoned. The day was looking better already. I sat up and looked around and found myself in a tiny cabin that was very sparse, at the foot of my bed was what appeared to be a sleeping human. He was taller than me and well muscled he had sword calluses, that told me he could use the blade that was laying in his lap. I took my time studying this strange human before me, trying to determine why he would save me and not slay me as any other human or elf would have. then it occured to me i could not sense him at all. It was like he was not in the room at all , at first i chalked it up to the posion. But as the days passed I still could not sense him. He tended to me the way a hen with one chick does, he rarely spoke, no matter how i tried to get him to . He remained stoic and silent. He defened me from the various attempts on my life as i recoverd from the poison. It took nearly a year before i could walk or eat with out constant pain. For those of you reading this and do not know what Lode stone is let me tell you. It is a rare well in my old world stone that absorbs magic. If place on the skin of a magical being it will burn the skin like hot metal. If ingested it will act as a poision slowly making the victim weaker, the more given the worse the pain befcomes. Bone , muscle, stomach pain is the victim uses magic during this time it will set off a cascade effect and induce a coma like state and even death. Lode stone has a finite limit of magic it can hold before it will break down. So to be effective it has to be replenished. My children had given me enough to put me in a coma for a month. that was how long Dane , the human had cared for me untill i woke. It took nearly six more months before i could walk with out his help , or even feed or dress myself. I had fallen so far. He finally began talking to me , he told that he and he alone stopped the death squads from claiming me. What ever this man claimed ot be he was no mere human male. The first year or so passed like that i relearned to care for my self. As i grew stronger he began my instruction int he combat arts. Now Drow i had been taught were the best fighters . This man taught me ways of fighting i did not know were possible. He taught me how to use my magic much more combat effective , than i ever thought possible. He beat me black and blue till i could hold my own against him regularly. This took up the next few years of my life consumed in the desire to learn all i could from him. I said no end of prayers of thanks that he was on my side and not my enemy. The day finally came he handed me and obsidian staff that was lined in silver runes and told me her name was God's Bane. As i toko her i could feel her pulse with life and magic . He turened from me and walked back into his cabin and locked the door. He never siad goodby just left me standing there with my robes and staff. i left his cabin and his woods forever. As i left i had found that he had altered time in his woods. Thousands of years had passed for everyone while i had throught mere years . That was alot to handle my magic was still minimal but growing and i had to find shelter because i was still drow , the humans and elves hunted me when they caught sight or rumor of me. It was during this time i wandered into the Clan grounds. but that is a story for another time.

The Test

2006-03-14T05:18:54Z

i scored the King (queen) on the card test